2001-01-16

if i would have posted yesterday, my entry would have read:

cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette cigarette!

but today i'm more resigned. yes, i want a cigarette, but i want it like that redneck hostage bitch wanted escape in silence of the lambs. hey, i kinda feel like her! neat! the point is, it doesn't matter how bad i want it, i can't have it. discipline, goddamn discipline.

and thus, i quote lovechild:

cigarette ash that you left behind

smells pretty bad, but i don't mind

reminds me of you, now that you're gone

who'll clean it up the next ti-ime...

i just bought me some minty fresh nicorette. and that's really all i can say. fray can do the rest for me in my time of need. send me love vibes, kiddies.